I’ve found myself in You

Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might
Know Your majesty?

Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known marked
With my Maker's fingerprints?

Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever I will seek You

'Cause all You are is all I want. Always
Draw me close in Your arms
Oh God, I wanna be with You

Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can You hear as all creation lives
To glorify one Name?

Good morning, sunshine :)

I cling to the Cross
and everything it means
I know its the only hope there is for saving me
for without Your great Mercy
I would be forever lost
with a thankful heart I come
and cling to the Cross.

bold.

Something in my heart is burning like a fire;
"I want to live for You"
Need Your touch right now, fill me with Your power
"I want to live for You, my God"

I will not be moved
I will stand for You

I will go where You send me
Jesus take me now, I am Yours
I am Yours
I lay my life on the altar
Everything I give to You alone
Here I am

I love You, Jesus, because You first loved me.

To my beautiful Saviour,

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all majesty, Risen King
Lamb of God, Holy and Righteous
Blessed Redeemer, Bright Morning Star

All the heavens shout Your Name All creation bows to worship You
How wonderful, how beautiful!
Name above every name, exalted high

How wonderful, how beautiful!
Jesus Your Name, Name above every name
Jesus

I will sing forever:
Jesus I love You, Jesus I love You

I love You, Jesus. I really do. There is no one like You.

Good Morning!

Today Dr. Mus Chairil said, "Love is a verb"

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient
Love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.

Love never fails

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I grew this heart into a drifter
never felt the roots I bare
sold my sight, oh, brother, sister
for a mountain of fool's gold, it's gone
only God knows, God knows where

soul was restless for redemption
feet were lookin' for a place to stand
well, I ain't got no life
and you know I ain't got no money
just the faith of an empty hand, empty hand

Amazing Grace, I feel you comin' up slowly now
like the sun is risin', heat on my face
oh, love that keeps on shinin', don't let the shadow come
you know I gotta feel your healin' rays

hitched a ride; I was a beggar
and I had murder on my hands
needed water to rinse these stains
but only blood could remove what's spillin'
and pardon me to blame

Amazing Grace, I feel you comin' up slowly now
Amazing Grace, I feel you comin' up slowly now

Amazing Grace, I feel you comin' up slowly now
like the sun is risin', heat on my face
oh love that keeps on shinin' don't let the shadow come
you know I got to, yeah

see, I gotta feel your healin' rays
you know I gotta feel your Amazing Grace

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans,
More abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice,
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow?

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all You are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need You now,
I owe You more each passing hour
The battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
And wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak,
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
The sin-soaked heart and make it Yours
Take my world all apart
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross Forgetting what my life has cost So wipe away the crimson stains And dull the nails that still remain So steal my heart and take the pain Take the selfish, take the weak And all the things I cannot hide Take the beauty, take my tears Take my world apart, take my world apart I pray, I pray,

I pray Take my world apart

Jars of Clay, Worlds Apart

Jesus, YOU'RE the Reason

I have never walked on water, felt the waves beneath my feet
But at Your Word, Lord, I receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me in the very same place
All my failings, sure they would have drowned me
Still You made a way

You are my Freedom,
Jesus You're the reason I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You here in my life?
Here in my life

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds the way to freedom,
Truth of Jesus
Brought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still You made a way

You are my Freedom,
Jesus You're the reason I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You here in my life?
Here in my life

My Jesus, how I love You.

Good King Wenceslas

Good King Wenceslas looked out
On the feast of Stephen
When the snow lay round about
Deep and crisp and even
Brightly shone the moon that night
Though the frost was cruel
When a poor man came in sight
Gath'ring winter fuel

"Hither, page, and stand by me
If thou know'st it, telling
Yonder peasant, who is he?
Where and what his dwelling?"
"Sire, he lives a good league hence
Underneath the mountain
Right against the forest fence
By Saint Agnes' fountain."

"Bring me flesh and bring me wine
Bring me pine logs hither
Thou and I will see him dine
When we bear him thither."
Page and monarch forth they went
Forth they went together
Through the rude wind's wild lament
And the bitter weather

"Sire, the night is darker now
And the wind blows stronger
Fails my heart, I know not how,
I can go no longer."
"Mark my footsteps, my good page
Tread thou in them boldly
Thou shalt find the winter's rage
Freeze thy blood less coldly."

In his master's steps he trod
Where the snow lay dinted
Heat was in the very sod
Which the Saint had printed
Therefore, Christian men, be sure
Wealth or rank possessing
Ye who now will bless the poor
Shall yourselves find blessing

6.

this one, closest to my heart.

Trust me, I have not earn'd your dear rebuke,
I love, as you would have me, God the most;
Would lose not Him, but you, must one be lost,
Nor with Lot's wife cast back a faithless look
Unready to forego what I forsook;
This say I, having counted up the cost,
This, though I be the feeblest of God's host,
The sorriest sheep Christ shepherds with His crook.
Yet while I love my God the most, I deem
That I can never love you overmuch;
I love Him more, so let me love you too;
Yea, as I apprehend it, love is such:

I cannot love you if I love not Him,
I cannot love Him if I love not you.

♥

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I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord,
I’ll receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me;
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me:
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still you made a way!

I'll worship at Your throne,
Whisper my own love song,
With all my heart I'll sing
for You, my Dad and King
I'll live for all my days
to put a smile on Your face
And when we finally meet,
it'll be for eternity

And oh how wide You open up Your arms
When I need Your love
How far You would come
If ever I was lost
You said that all You feel for me
is Undying Love
That You showed me through the cross

I worship You, my God
I worship You, my God
I love You,
I love You
forever I will sing
forever I will be with You,
be with You.

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5. prayer for you and i

O my heart's heart, and you who are to me
More than myself myself, God be with you,
Keep you in strong obedience leal and true
To Him whose noble service setteth free,
Give you all good we see or can foresee,
Make your joys many and your sorrows few,
Bless you in what you bear and what you do,
Yea, perfect you as He would have you be.
So much for you; but what for me, dear friend?
To love you without stint and all I can
Today, tomorrow, world without an end;
To love you much and yet to love you more,
As Jordan at his flood sweeps either shore;
Since woman is the helpmeet made for man.

For Today.

For Today, this is appropriate.
Fuh, what a one and two days it has been.

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There's no room
No space to rent in this town

You're out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you're not moving anywhere

You thought you'd found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you

It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
It's a beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
Don't need it now
Was a beautiful day
U2, Beautiful Day

You r my heart.

My Father I adore You more than anything my heart could wish for, I just want You. And Jesus, my beloved Saviour, everything I am I owe to You; I owe it all to You. And angels come and adore You. And we Your children worship You.
You are my world, You are my God, and I lay down my life for You. You are my Lord, the one I love. No one could ever take You place.
And everything I am I give to You, my Lord, the one I live for. I live for You. And all my days are gifts from You, I pray I'd use them as You want me to, use them for You. And angels come and adore You. And we Your children worship You.
You are my world, You are my God, and I lay down my life for You. You are my Lord, the one I love. No one could ever take You place.

"But you will be fed with the finest of wheat; with honey from the rock I would satisfy You" (Psalm 81:16)

Fog-ed Up, Part 2

They fogged the house again. This time without warning, malang tidak berbau (Well, in this case, malang yang berbau la).
I was happily eating porridge + marmite + vege + egg (porridge + marmite + vege + egg are my staple diet here) and drinking Nestle's Yogurt Drink (Tropical Fruits), whilst reading The Kite Runner. It was a very relaxed time, just sitting there, chopsticks in one hand, novel in another. Yohan came back with his tapau-ed nasi kerabu, we exchange greetings. It was all very serene, calm, nothing chaotic. No rushing about, not much talking. Just quiet, book and chopsticks.

Suddenly the distant vrrrr came nearer and nearer, VRRRRR. And without any warning, the house was filled with smoke. Literally.

The calm changed to quiet shock, which broke when Yohan shouted, "Get the food off the table!", so i grabbed an empty plate to cover my precious vege, and ran to hide it, of all places, in my bedroom.

As the smoke seeped in, out of control, we frantically tried to find a place to shield ourselves from it. There wasn't anywhere. We opened the front door to run out, and more smoke came in. The "laundry room" was too full of, well, laundry, for us to even squeeze in. In the end we were driven into a corner, and there we waited with the front of our t-shirts over our noses. The fog was so thick we couldn't even see each other, let alone the rest of the house.

Well, the smoke in the house eventually subsided, because Yohan braved through all that poison to turn on the fans full blast. We still couldn't open the front door because more smoke from the stairway would get in, so we felt our way to the back windows and opened all of them wide. And hung with our arms dangling from the window grill, gasping for fresh air.
It was terrible.

However, in other news, I had a blast tonight with my GaLZ :) We had CG and a very fulfilling time discussing quiet time.
Praise the Lord for all His goodness (even the mozzie fog - it keeps dengue at bay). I am reminded again of His Love and His Sovereignty, reminded that because the LORD of all holds me, I am in good hands.
There is nothing like :)

You are my Strength

You are my Strength
Strength like no other
Strength like no other
Reaches to me

You are my Hope
Hope like no other
Hope like no other
Reaches to me

In the fullness of Your grace
In the power of Your Name
You lift me up
You lift me up

Unfailing love
Stronger than mountains
Deeper than oceans
Reaches to me

Your love O Lord
Reaches to the heavens
Your faithfulness
Reaches to the skies
-United, Savior King

If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.

If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan as I wait for Hope to come for me

Am I lost or just found? On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
Is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
An avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live, I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming

C.S. Lewis & Brooke Fraser

Malaysiaku untuk Yesus, Malaysia untuk Yesusku

You are God of this city
You are King of this people
You are Lord of this nation
You are

You are Light in this darkness
You are Hope to the hopeless
You are Peace to the restless
You are

There is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

Greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done in this city
Greater things have yet to come
Greater things are yet to be done here.

"If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself, take up his cross daily and follow Me." -Luke9:23


Love Incarnate, Love Divine
Captivate this heart of mine
Till all I do,
Speaks of You.

Who am I
That the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I
That the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Who am I
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again

Who am I
That the Voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am.
I am Yours.

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How great Thou art,
How great Thou art!

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My Jesus, I love You

Love of my life, Life of my life

Could this be out of line?

Could this be out of line,
To say You're the only one, breaking me down like this?
You're the only one I would take a shot on,
Keep me hanging on, so contagiously.

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I'm at one of those points in my life where I'm asking myself "who am I?" Everyone (who claims to know me) says I know who I am. That I've pretty much discovered and establish my identity.
Which confuses me, because I don't know who I am. I think.

I guess at those other points (of ponder), I grew into me at a somewhat consistent rate. No drastic changes; so I could stop, look at myself and say "Ahh...I am such and such". The circumstances around me made sense, my structures, my building plans and I could relate myself around them.

But now that my structures have been torn down, and my building plans thrown into the flames, now I'm really baffled. I'm stumped. I look at my past, and see a ghost of what (or rather who) I used to be. And in the mirror, I now see someone I recognize, but I do not know.

Who am I, really?

I figured, I would eventually find out...just let time take its course.
Until Chan K.O. commented I'm a bit old to be searching for my identity.
OK.

So I went back, and asked the Maker.
(gosh, why didn't I think of this earlier)

And He says
"...in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—His good, pleasing and perfect will.

For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you. Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully."

Of course.

So I figure (for now at this point of the research-process) He's just changing me completely, thats all, that's why I don't recognize myself.

I'm just gonna trust You.

I am weak, You are strong.
I am small, You are big.
You are clever, I am not.
I am lost, You find me.
So thank You, Lord, for calling me Yours.

I live for You, all of my days
belong to You
You draw me to Your tenderness

You make me new

Into the secret place I will run
Where my heart can be free
in the place that I'm found

Unto You
Be all glory and praise
How my heart seeks Your face
as I'm waiting on You
Only You
are my Strength and my Tower
fill my life with You power
as I stand here in awe of You

I stand here in awe of You

Waiting, waiting
I am waiting
I will wait upon You.

Teach my heart to
listen to
wait upon You.

Teach my heart to
trust to
wait upon You.

Teach my heart to
be still to
wait upon You.

influenc-ing/es

Influence '08 was a conference for young adults, the just-started-working, and the going-to-work-soon batch, the same generation what went for Parousia 2000 and Parousia 2001. (yea, so why not call it "Parousia : all grown up"?...well, thats just my opinion, i'm not very original :) )
But strangely, i didn't recognize many people there from the former Parousia conferences (not that i knew everyone at the former Parousia conferences also la)

Anyhoos...it was a very good conference, and i would go next year should there be another. I especially liked the speakers Micheal Tang (because he looks like Gandalf-Gandalf is from LOTR, Lisa, not Harry Potter!) and Benny Ng (even though he's from Singapore, no offense to Singaporeans :))

Micheal (cehh...like i know him, haha) said "Consistency is the key to successful branding". See? CONSISTENCY.
What is our brand as Christians?
"...they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony.." (Rev12:11)
"...but the fruits of the Spirit are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law" (Gal 5:22-23)
"By this all men will know that you are My disciples, if you love one another" (John 13:15)

I think to echo what the apostle Paul wrote to Timothy would be to sum what was shared throughout the conference (at least what i gathered la)
"Command those who are rich in this present age not to be haughty, nor to trust in uncertain riches but in the living God, who gives us richly all things to enjoy." (1 Tim 6:17)

~To not store up for ourselves temporary things, things that 'moth and rust can destroy'-things the world offers, but to store for ourselves treasures in heaven, where 'moth and rust cannot destroy', our eternal inheritance as children of the Living God, Who provides all things for us on earth and for eternity.

*smiles all round*

One Thing - Hillsongs

One thing I desire
One thing I seek
To gaze upon Your beauty
And Your majesty
God of my salvation
Lifter of my head
Teach me how to live oh Lord
In Your righteousness

So I pray to You
So I pray to You

Lord Your name
Is higher than the heavens
Lord Your name
Is higher than all created things
Higher than hope
Higher than dreams
The name of the Lord

In the day of trouble
You cover me
In the secret place of refuge
Lord I will sing

I will seek Your face
Call upon Your name Jesus
All I want is You
Jesus

In the autumn on the ground,
between the traffic and the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
I watch as lovers pass me by
Walking stories - whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell

When it's time to walk that way, we wanna walk it well

I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting till we're ready, till it's right
Love is waiting

It's my caution not the cold
there's no other hand that i would rather hold
The climate changes,
I'm singing for the strangers about you
Don't keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
the bets are getting surer now,
that you're my man

I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting till we're ready, till it's right
Love is waiting

I could write a million songs about the way you say my name
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again
and like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,
neither should I rush my way into your heart.

I'll be waiting for you baby
I'll be holding back the darkest night
Love is waiting till we're ready, till it's right
Love is waiting


Brooke Fraser, Love Is Waiting