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Thursday, May 22, 2014


The pull of the world, is strong, yes. 

 But my God is stronger. He places Himself as a “filter” within me - the truth - which is a bright lamp exposing the false pretenses of the world. 

 “Give yourself to pleasure, just live”, the world says and I must admit that I am enticed. It resonates with my curious nature in wanting to see everything, wanting to experience everything. The enemy tries to deceive me into believing, much like he deceived Eve: God doesn't want you to LIVE life - all His rules, His boundaries, His limits are meant to keep you from “living life to the fullest”. 

But the truth is, what the world paints as a pretty picture: is just that — paint that cracks under extreme weather, that loses its sheen over time — and underneath the mask of bright colours is nothing but cold, dead, concrete. 

There is no life outside Christ. There is only false beauty, false hope, instant gratification, temporary relief, nothing permanent or abiding. The only thing constant in a life outside Christ is the surety of despair. 

His commands are almost always difficult ones. His standards always seem so impossible and unattainable, because they are so far above, so far removed from the tremendously low bar sinful humanity has set for ourselves. 

The narrow path is a frightening one to take. But this “lamp” that guides my path, this “filter” that whispers in my ear “not this, my beloved” — it is within me because of His grace.
His tremendous, incomprehensible, limitless love for me which keeps me from falling. Which hoists me to live by His “standards” which I would otherwise never be able to reach on my own. The work of grace, His work on the Cross. Once I was blind, but now I see.

Friday, February 7, 2014

If to distant lands I scatter, if I sail to farthest seas
Would you find and firm and gather 'til I only dwell in Thee?

If I flee from greenest pastures, would you leave to look for me?
Forfeit glory to come after, 'Til I only dwell in Thee?

If my heart has one ambition, if my soul one goal to seek
This my solitary vision 'til I only dwell in Thee

Sunday, January 12, 2014

All things new

It has been awhile. Over a year actually, and I am now blogging from Bangkok, Thailand.

I came here more than six months ago to work - I took on an editor's role, putting reporting on pause - and also because I desperately needed to get away, and the Lord knew.

So here I am, in my 7th month in Bangkok, trying to figure out how time flew by so quickly, and trying to figure out where to go next. I have been meaning to chronicle my time and experiences here, but I have been putting it off. In fact, in the past year (from my last post before this), I have been putting a lot off. I put my entire life on hold while I allowed myself to be distracted. Gave myself permission to take my eyes off painful reality, told myself that I deserved it, allowed myself to enjoy the euphoria of dancing dangerously close to the edge of a deadly cliff- and nearly fell to my destruction, if it hadn't been for One heroic act of catching me in time, scooping me up helpless and disorientated, and bringing me here to safety and recovery.

Anyway, all that is past, and here is where the future begins.

[I will endeavour to revive and revamp this blog, where I hope to (faithfully and continuously) record a story of endless unconditional Love, redemption and faithfulness.]