J said today (when asked what he'd like to buy in Chow Yang pasar malam)
"I would like to buy true love, world peace and (i can't remember the other thing)"
I am the most inconsistent person. I struggle with routine, mostly. I don't know why...but i find it SO hard to just do the same things everyday.
And perhaps the hardest thing to do, is meeting daily with the invisible God. (who is only invisible because our eyes are so distracted everyday by all the things around us that we fail to see Him right before us).
Even though i know that He waits for me everyday to meet with Him and just be with each other, as one would with his lover, I still sometimes fail to keep my appointments with Him.
So anyway, back to what J said; true love isn't sold in pasar malam...but i know where one could get true love:
Love that never fails, that isn't unfaithful even when we, Hosea's wives, are. Love that waits for us to commune, to sup with Him everyday. Love that gathers us as a hen gathers her young and takes away our fears. A consistent, unwavering, unconditional, steadfast and strong; a fortress where we find refuge from our cruelest enemies, yet at the same time a soft, gentle balm for our wounded hearts. A Love that conquered death and covers a multitude of sins.
This Love,
My Jesus I love You, because You first loved me.
Psalm 25
Of David.
To You, O LORD, I lift up my soul; in You I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.
No one whose hope is in You
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.
Show me Your ways, O LORD,
teach me Your paths;
guide me in Your truth and teach me,
for You are God my Savior,
and my hope is in You all day long.
Remember, O LORD, Your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.
Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to Your love remember me,
for You are good, O LORD.
Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore He instructs sinners in His ways.
He guides the humble in what is right
and teaches them His way.
All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful
for those who keep the demands of His covenant.
For the sake of Your name, O LORD,
forgive my iniquity, though it is great.
Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ?
He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.
He will spend his days in prosperity,
and His descendants will inherit the land.
The LORD confides in those who fear Him;
He makes his covenant known to them.
My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only He will release my feet from the snare.
Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.
The troubles of my heart have multiplied;
free me from my anguish.
Look upon my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.
See how my enemies have increased
and how fiercely they hate me!
Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame,
for I take refuge in You.
May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope is in You.
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Jesus, remained seated on the ground, drawing in the sand with His finger, as the crowd jeered and taunted, questioning Him, waiting for Him to pass judgement as what the law states, He who claimed to be the One sent by God. The adulterous woman, the sinner must be stoned. And each one already had a stone in their hands, waiting to put to death this outcast, this immoral woman, who was found in bed with a man who was not her husband. She has sinned, she must be put to death. then Jesus straightened up and looked at them, knowing their hearts, loving them, just as He loved the woman at His feet. And said to them "if any of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her" this was why He came, because none is without sin. and when the crowd had gone away stoneless, Jesus looked at her with His face full of compassion, loving her, just as He loved the crowd, asked her "woman, has no one condemned you?" what more is there to say? "no sir", she replied and He said, "then neither do i condemn you, go now, and leave your life of sin"
